Aspiring to Sucess: Asking for help

I won't normally make two posts in one day but I wanted to clarify something. Part of aspiring to success is learning when to ask for help. After my son was born I had fallen into a deep depression. I was isolated from my family and friends and my husband was working long hours so I had a lot of time alone with my thoughts.

I had gained a lot of weight and could not seem to make any progress towards my goals. My son was so small and fragile it was hard not to blame myself every day. It took me going to the brink of losing everything to realize that I needed help.

After getting some help I began to establish daily goals for myself. Nothing too overwhelming, just something that I could use as a guide to measure my personal success. Whether it be to write a new poem, or call a friend, or go online and make a new friend. As long as I would set a goal for myself each day, each day I could have something to be proud of.

Somedays were harder then others so I would make my goal to not yell, or to cry only once. Others days it was to make sure I said "I love you" at least once that day. For a long time saying "I love you" was the only thing I had the strength to do. Let me tell you though, those three words are the most powerful tool I have ever seen.

As I told my son how much I loved him and told my husband I loved him before he went to work everyday, I found myself slowly starting to dig myself out from my own sorrow.

My child smiled for the first time and I was there. I told him I loved him and he smiled. Could you imagine?

The goal was simple, challenge myself each day. Small challenges at first, increase them, and decrease them as needed. Make a new dish, clean a different area of the house, write something, go somewhere, etc.

The sucess I found was an inner peace. I am grateful for this peace.

Here is another poem:

My heart




If I wait to see tomorrow

Would I find what I had lost?

If I filled my soul with sorrow

Would I pay the bitter cost?

But hope and love would see me

Past this bitter time

For my heart is filled with passion

For the one who blew my mind



Give myself

Give my heart

Give my mind, body, and soul

Give my life

Give my choice

Give it all if love is so


From the beginning to the end

If we start then stop again

If we move before we speak

Or say words before their spoken

If we stop before we see

Or fall before we open

the key to find the way

the way to things forgotten

a feeling full of moments

moments full of time

time never forgotten

the past leaving behind
 
For the one who blew my mind